AURORAE

Who releases music on Good Friday?

ME! I do, because (A) I didn’t realise it was easter, and (B) it has no bearing on the music, and need to create. The music will be made, and sifted into the folder of most magical, the pile of ‘confused but not for this thing’, a folder of ‘perhaps’, even the ‘definitely NO’ recordings are kept, because in a different mood, on a different day, if the sun is shining, or i’m looking for a particular sound, they might be a ‘definitely YES’.

You know how a word gets into your head, and becomes a thing? Well Aurorae is this. The music was feeling disconnected because it needed a home, it needed a title, a heading, a place to live. But often the word, or the feeling comes after the music. I feel my way into it. I make it, I try not to judge it in the moment. I improvise and follow my intuition. I had a collection of about 90 minutes of new music this month, I decided to let it happen. let it all out then work it out afterwards,

Sometimes, I know how I want to feel or sound, or what I want to explore, and sometimes it’s free flowing and feels awful and uncontained, but then gradually it becomes something. A shape, a sound. I have to be there everyday, playing, and then it appears. When I look back at every month’s music, and the final release, I don’t know how it got there. I mean, I remember recording it, I remember chopping the tops and tails to get rid of the clunk of me putting the bow down, or taking a huge breath before playing, but the hours of listening and seeing if the music it evokes anything is a mist, a fog, a blur, a dream, a cloud, or a spectacle of light. The Aurora Borealis, and the Aurora Australis. We know technically how they work, but they are so much more than that. Our bodies respond to the magic, the light and the flow.

This is how I feel about the music I am releasing this month. I have had challenges, health and emotional, friends and family, but I have still made something which makes me feel more than the technicalities and overheads of life.

I don’t want to dissect the process, I don’t want to make it explain itself to me. Just make, and be, and show up, and hideaway.

love

Laura